been taking it a while now, weekend kinda thing.
its always been a good experience, euphoric, visuals in high doses,
as the white crystal, it feels heavier,more of a sat on your arse to buzz
as the brown crystal its more energetic and a little less of a whoooosh when coming up.
maybe takes an hour to get there from dropping it ala bomb
rub on your gums/under the tongue (if you can hack the taste) you dont need to take as much, and it comes on quicker.
id usually go .5 2 hour later .5 2hours later .5 ( dont try that u firsttimers i calculated by my bodyweight, and tolerance im a big guy)
this time i do not know why, i dropped .4-.5 in a bomb ... started coming up, soon as i was hitting the level, i felt fucking shit. i mean emotionally fucked up. like the worst thing in my life gone wrong, if i wasnt experienced in drug use i could have well been in trouble. 5 hours of hell lol. that was a proper depressive trip this time, words cant describe it.
usually i feel like im touching god kinda thing, part of the extra dimension in touch with whatever the fuck our minds fly off too when high.
its kind of left me slightly confused about my view of the drug, i mean its an antidepressant right?
i felt great before i took it, no worries.
i can only liken it too experiences ive had in the past when ive over indulged for a period of time a substance which has a physical/mental addiction risk, stopped it for a few week, tried it again felt the same... so left well alone thereafter.
mda has no physical addiction risk though?
could 2-4 times a week cause a chemical imbalance in the brain through residual buildup in my system?
forever the psychonaut.. im searching for the answers its out there.. somewhere lol
yes its definately mda and nothing else.
the only other thing i can possibly think about, and i just cant see why it would make this happen, is ive suddenly stopped smoking skunk, from @10g a day to 0.
anyone got any input?