First of all I want to say that I am very familiar to DMT, so this experience came as quite a shock to me. I had been experimenting with Ketomine and Dmt a lot this last week working on a project about music and hypnotic programming.
For the record I have only had the best most magical experiences with that combination . I do a lot of mind research and brain programming so i am very familiar in the "underworld" as i like to call it.
I had a very unhealthy day as far as lots of sugar, smoking and coffee which normally i don't do, I am actually very healthy but i was going into a heavy workload and was just being lazy and unhealthy in a temporary cycle but somehow i knew i was pushing my limits as far as the programming was going (about 30 trips in a few day). I believe i was getting careless as for the experiences were concerned because I was doing things like not cleaning my bowl and was smoking DMT on top of old DMT.
I don't know exactly what triggered this scary experience but this is how it went.
I felt it coming on very quickly normally it takes 3 or 4 hits but this one came on quickly at 2 inhales, visuals became active and then it was like instantly two powerful wires crossed and short circuited everything and instantly i knew something went wrong and It was very bad. I was left in a space where i unintentionally short circuited everything.(it was the exactly feeling i believe if you were playing with a loaded gun and accidentally short and killed someone in front of you). Everything was dead, i knew it. Nothing worked, everything was fried and broken all the other entities were all shaking their heads angrily at me and i found myself in this world alone with the most alone feeling one could imagine. It was like all life was gone, no energy just pure emptiness.
The non human things that were half alive were all blaming me. Humans were gone, everyone i love disappeared and i was left in this broken empty world. All alone. I called out loud to my wife serval times but there was only silence. Nothing was there, i was seriously freaking out because this world looked exactly like where i lived except everything was friend and burned. I was saying out loud "I'm sorry, all i was trying to do was good" but it was too late, the damage was done..Somehow my carelessness caused it all..I was alone, everything was broken my computer looked broken and sad, lights were dim and barely alive and there was this low draining hum of a sound. i was consciously trying to recreate positive good thoughts to bring back my world but it was over and i knew it.
I was sitting by my desk saying out loud "I am sorry" When i had the thought maybe i just threw a breaker to the house and if i reset it everything would come to life again but when i went outside all the landscape, plants and the earth was burnt , there was no life. I saw someone or something walking down the street and called out to it but it was like a walking zombie, it didn't even hear me when i called out "hello" It just kept on walking (i don't know if there even was a person but it was on my street )....I was calling out to pure emptiness...I don't know what happened but it was like atom bomb went off and everything was burnt and dead...I went back into my room empty, feeling sad and lonely "even my dogs were gone" and the only thing i felt i could do was lay down on my burnt bed and go to sleep to dissappear, as i went to lay down even the pillow was growling at me like i fucked up. i laid down for a moment and then i opened my eyes and my wife was there. I was so thankful as my normal reality seemed to be coming back she said my face was white and my heart was beating super fast.
All i can say was that,that was the craziest scariest trip ever, it was so real to me and i have done easily over 100 trips. so my thoughts about this is are, is it because i had a super unhealthy day by smoking,sugar and coffee? Could that have ignited that effect? or maybe mixing DMT with older burnt DMT? or maybe being a little overrun lately? Any insight would be nice. I found it interesting that when i was coming back all that was going off in my head was this was your lesson for smoking cigarettes . I will still explore just to get over any residue fear but from now on i will enter the space very healthy and respectful. I will never take DMT again for granted because it kicked my ass. Scared the be-jesus out of me. Glad to be back alive with my loved ones. I know this is written sloppily but I'm still coming down.